content?

im feeling a little frustrated. i wish i had gotten done all the studying for physcis by yesterday (so i can get the revision and some some chemistry an BIO by the time the weekend ends! then i can relax next week before the papers). Anyways, i havent exactly started. It's this SUPER bad habit; i keep thinking i can get everything done in just two days so i want to leave everything till two days just before the paper.

HAHA im like, tempted to write everything i can right now about the things in and around me. but i really shouldnt. It would take my night, ...and because it's private. :P what if i end up like britney spears! all the paparazi following her and all that. HAHAHAHA.

anyways...
i will say though, that im frustrated. I really just wish some times that i could just accept things they way they are and in that, i'll always be content! i wont, have to get mad at how things arent progressing, or how things arent how i had wanted them to be and all that, because everything is ok with me. then i wont have to stress and kick at things, and punch air and abuse my little sister's hamster over them! sushi, or muffin (or watever names i call the hamster) would really appreciate that i think. :D

sometimes i think God could be putting me through a test. like,,, testing my patience. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarg honestly, one of the harder things for me to have.
other times, i think He could be asking me to give up on certain things/dreams. which are. oh. so. hard. to. do. so.

One of the things i've learned in this walk with God, is that, better to learn the lesson during tests, trials or whatever and get it over with : P
but i dunno, i guess some things are hard to get over/ give up...

haha ok i know like, sentences here and there they dont connect. if i handed this to Mr Bryan (my GP teacher), he will not be pleased. first of all, he wouldnt like the "aaaaaaaaaaaarg" and , the terrible organisation of paragraphs. and extensive misuse of commas. ok maybe not so extensive, but i really wanted to put the word "extensive" there.

i'll write more next time, cos bernard wants to log in now. : P